What am I doing?

Inner peace feels like cherries in spring and the leaves in August. It's like scratching an itch. Like finding a perfect puddle of water.

20060930

I saw this on Shani's blog on my newsfeed so I decided to do it too!

Put your music player on shuffle.
Press forward for each question.
Use the song title as the answer to the question even if they don't make sense.
You'll be surprised though.

How am I feeling today?
It's Going Down - Xecutioners

Will I get far in life?
We Will Become Silhouettes - The Postal Service

How do my friends see me?
This Suffering - Billy Talent

Where will I get married?
Distraction - Apocalyptica

What is my best friend's theme song?
Brand New Low - Treble Charger

What is the story of my life?
I will follow you into the Dark - Deathcab

What was high school like?
Under a Killing Moon - Thrice

How can I get ahead in life?
Prayer - Disturbed

What is the best thing about me?
Adam's Song - Blink 182

What was today like?
The Unforgiven - Metallica

What is in store for this weekend?
Weak and Powerless - A Perfect Circle

What song describes my parents?
Crash Course in Brain Surgery - Metallica

How is my life going?
Wherever I may Roam - Metallica

What song will they play at my funeral?
State of Love and Trust - Pearl Jam

How does the world see me?
Imaginary - Evanescence

Will I have a happy life?
One Step Closer - Linkin Park

What do my friends really think of me?
The Dark Canuck - The Tragically Hip

Do people secretly lust after me?
Concerning Hobbits - LOTR Soundtrack

How can I make myself happy?
In Hiding - Pearl Jam

What should I do with my life?
All or None - Pearl Jam

What will my children be like?
Symphony 9 - Beethoven

What will you name them?
The God that Failed - Metallica

What will the person you marry be like?
1/2 Full - Pearl Jam

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Tiny Vessels - Deathcab

Will you have a fulfilling life?
Imagine - John Lennon

20060928

Who are we?
We are the dead. Those soulless spirits that walk and talk in vain; working, living, dying for an unknown cause, and worth nothing at all.

Who are we?
We are you, and me, and those around us... the walking wounded.


THE RUNE OF ST. PATRICK
At Tara today in this fateful hour
I place all Heaven with its power,
And the sun with its brightness,
And the snow with its whiteness,
And fire with all the strength it hath,
And lightning with its rapid wrath,
And the winds with their swiftness along their path,
And the sea with its deepness,
And the rocks with their steepness,
And the earth with its starkness
All these I place,
By God's almighty help and grace,
Between myself and the powers of darkness.

20060919

I have noticed something quite... odd, during the last few years. It has always seemed to be that certain friendships are made from convenience, no matter how hard we try to deny it. Sometimes, friends become friends merely to use each other, much like leeches suck the blood of their hosts. Sometimes, it's a one way relationship, and at other times, it becomes a sort of symbiosis. Sadly, the superficiality of the friendship only rises up after need has disappeared.

However, the main point of this post is not to debate the finer points of friendships but rather to set a warning, an alarm if you will. Lately, I have begun to notice that especially in University and post-secondary education, there is a high population of these human leeches. In a frantic, fast-paced world, the easiest way to get something is to take it. And thus, we have evolved, or adapted, to using each other. So, my warning is not to avoid these people, but not to become one yourself. Much worth is put on friendships, and thus the higher two people fly together, the harder it is when they fall.

It's one sad thing to lose a friend you never really had, but it's much sadder to abandon someone who believed in you.

20060916

I find life to be as amusing and short-lived as a stone skipping across a pond. We do, of course, have our ups and downs, as does the stone, before sinking into that dark abyss. And like stones, each person differs in the way they skip through life. Some people succumb quickly and sink, while others may bounce back up and continue for quite a long while. What I do find strange, however, is the fact that as more stones sink, it is easier for future stones to go farther, as they merely bounce off of previous stones. And eventually, the whole body of water is filled with stones, which reflects how humans have a strange tendency... to support themselves on the fallen. The number of people who succeed is proportional to the number of those that fail. So for every success that comes to you in your life... remember someone fell to guarantee you that happiness.

20060914

They came for the Jews.
I was silent. I am not a Jew.

They came for the Communists.
I was silent. I am not a Communist.

They came for the Unionists.
I was silent. I am not a Unionist.

They came for me.
Everyone was silent.

20060901

So. I leave tomorrow.

And when I start a new phase of my life, I end an old one, and because I'll be changing, and the world will be changing, I'd like to thank all of you people, whether you were friend or my enemy, for making me who I am.

And on top of that, I'd wish that we'd see each other again, but the likelihood is that half of you have probably forgotten me already.

The world is going to be a scary place, but if you can smile, then life will seem easier. If you are happy... you should smile. Don't go through life being a robot... live a little. Wake up and go to sleep feeling good about yourself. Don't let your life descend into monotony.

Remember that someone out there cares.